When I see things about orphans it breaks my heart. Like, I can almost hear it breaking. And the Lord, in His goodness and Soverignty is saying "Wait".

We've had some funds come in, praise God! We really feel as though we need to have about a quarter of the funds in before we proceed with going into the adoption agency and start the homestudy process. We have a long way to go before we meet this goal.

So here we are, waiting for God to supernaturally make funds appear, as He does, so we can move forward. But, we know He has a reason. He always does. God never does things hap-hazardly. Maybe we need to learn something. Maybe Landon and Charlotte need to be just a bit older. Maybe God's waiting for our son to be born.


Whatever the case, I just hope He keeps our hearts breaking, longing for our son and for orphans everywhere to find a loving home. I hope God keeps this at the forefront of our minds at all times, that we would increase in prayers and love for this dear child we haven't met.

Organizing Landon's clothes usually makes me sad. Having to sort through all the old ones, the ones that are too small, makes me frown a little and even want to say (with an Austin Powers accent) "tear".

I usually think about what a big boy he's becoming. How my baby, my precious boy is just growing up far too fast.

But not today.

Today I was excited. Today I felt God was with me with me. Right there, in Landon's very room. Today, I had a smile on my face going through "my baby's" too-small outfits.

Today I realized, our second son will wear these clothes.

I'm getting so choked up as I write this. What a blessing, an absolute blessing it will be to have him home here with the rest of the fam. We don't know him, or anything about him. We think we know his nationality. But there's many things we don't know: his age, what he looks like, what his bio parents are like, what part of the country he's from, what his experiences have been (and is he even born yet??).

Today I was okay, even happy, with organizing Landon's clothes. Today I thought about what my second son, our third child, will look like in those clothes.

Sometimes I think we must really be crazy. Like, totally off-our-rocker, what-the-heck-could-we-possibly-be-thinking crazy.

We know we want three kids, and that it will be such a blessing from the Lord. But wow. Two is already a lot and Charlotte's not even crawling yet! This morning was an interesting "Is it naptime yet?" kind of a morning. With about 5 temper tauntrums under my belt, lots of tears, hugs, and a big ole' patch of puke on my shoulder, this morning was somethin' else.

And yes, I want another one. ;)

And the craziness doesn't just stop with the emotional joys, tolls and everything else along the way. The craziness is the $30,000 it's going to cost to bring our second son home. The craziness is we don't have an extra $30,000 to speak of (let alone a quarter of that!). Good grief, we're crazy.

But God is faithful. His Word reminds me that with Him, all things are possible (Matt. 19:26). And His heart is for the orphan (John 14:18, James 1:27, Psalm 68:5, 82:3, amongst others). I know that while I might not be able, He is. We're so excited to watch this miracle unfold. To see what our great God will do and how He'll bring His will to pass.

We're so excited to start this journey of international adoption! We're hoping to adopt our son from Colombia. There are still SO many details to work out, but we're just trying to trust God that He'll provide for everything our family needs. Got in touch with Bethany (adoption agency) and we agreed that we'd get back in touch in December or January to fill out a formal application. Right now, praying and fundraising! :)